Jawab Ne Hi Sawal Puch Liya

kyu mai khamosh hu,

ye usne puch liya

halki si muskan ke piche,

hai kuch chupa,

ye usne samaj liya

waqt, ummed, ehsas, sparsh,

khulke yu nyochawar kiya,

bandhe hue khwahiso ki, 

bediyo ko bhi khola,

shararti un ankhone,

muskurahat ko jamke luta,

khyalo mai mujhe fir esa uljhaya,

khud ko hi mene tab bhulaya,

uljhan samaj ne ki samaj,

aati bhi kaise,

kyuki,

jawab ne hi to sawal puch liya.

Arjun

Arjun was looking forward about the month to come, all the event that has unfolded recently had surely gave him some indication that things might turn around by leaps and bounds soon. A decade back who would have thought that his life would reach to a point where everything about it would seem unreal. Neither Arjun nor anyone who knows him would have thought that he would reach to this stage in his life.

Arjun by nature is very simple and calm person with very low liking for all the fantasies of this fast-paced world, he likes to take things slowly not rushing to the end product rather sooner but enjoying the journey. He had very distinct choices which would attribute well to his character. The type of music, movies, books, activities, fashion, everything about him would just set perfectly with his style of living and liking. If he would have been a painting, it would be one of those canvas where everything is brushed with precise colors to form a perfect calm natural landscape (without humans in it obviously). 

He had a great liking about the rabbit-tortoise race, some people used to relate it with his style while some people felt that the reference was just a vague example to justify rather a slow mover which does not hold enough relevance in this modern world. Arjun was not someone whom you would like from day one, however you would not hate him from day one either. He would top the list of "The most sorted person", if the list was prepared by the limited people who knew him well. He used to have very simple point of view about almost everything that you can think of.

It was always difficult for people to guess what he was feeling, he wasn't expressive enough for anyone to judge his state of mind. Due to this very reason lot of people used to find him bit weird and difficult to deal with. Not everyone would get feedback of the conversation from him, most of the time it would just be a simple faint smile. There was something special about his smile, it never changed since the days he was in diapers. Innocence was the most visible feature on his face.

You would never find him arguing with anyone about anything, he would just stay silent most of the time and if he had to speak, he would seal the conversation with one simple statement which would be enough to summarize hours long discussion. Sometimes people would understand it right away and sometimes they would understand it after many many years and sometimes it would not make any sense.   

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Germination

There is a mist

amid this dryness,

and a Zeal

amid this calmness.

Not sure why,

it's not harnessing,

not sure why,

it's not characterizing.

Have we doubted

its realistic existence?

or have we stopped

looking for it unrealistic experience?

Is this the way?

Last night, the Friday night, on the way back to my personal paradise, my home! I have witness something that is worth acquiring the space here. It's always a great feeling when you are heading towards your home after having your job done, especially on Fridays. Although if it does not gives you a sense of satisfaction and inner strength at the end of the day, then its not worth continuing it on Monday, you have to apply some serious thought over it on entire weekend.

As usual, I was riding on two wheels, one of those invented by our ancestors some 15 - 20 years back in chapter 5 of class 4 in some Environment book. I remember the picture in the textbook, a human looking guy rolling the wheel. (Disclaimer : Academic information provided above is solely based on my not so good academic memory, so please bare with it. To help you out with the term further, Academic memory can be defined as that part of memory that is intended to help you overcome academic challenges and provide you relevant, clear and sufficient data when you have to prove yourself in exams. Although I never had very good relation with it, so it used to dump me whenever given a chance). 

While I was covering up the remaining distance on my daily route to home, I reached the bridge built across the lonely equatorial river(just to mention that rivers are compared to Mother here in India) of the city, carved in very mesmerizing beautiful way by the nature. Its always good to have natural flavor added to the city to keep its nature loving citizens content, not every city on this planet has been blessed with natural factors.

Midway on the bridge my retina cheated through the corner and reported something worthy a look. Respecting the extra efforts put in by the eye ball, I turned my head around to consider the matter on hand. It surely was of significant value attesting that magnetic glimpse of the city at that silent odd hour.

With in no time, management department took the decision to take a very short break to admire the essence of this titillating combination of clustered artificial lights seducing the faint dark night. Obeying the orders I immediately applied brakes providing enough friction to halt my top speed these day which reads 40 kmph on the speedometer(Those who know me well, will surely have their jaws tearing apart in disbelief right now, looking at the numbers. But that is the truth my friend, its out of provided resources rather than of choice). 

I followed the complete landscape, in quick glance skipping the minute details. At that instant I was more pleased to digest what is being served instead of inspecting more out of it. Very often it seems that less is more than more. That sight made me realized how small things decorated beautifully can create appealing sets when alloyed with even the opposite of its nature and purpose. Human less scenery always revels deeper and thoughtful insight accompanied with honesty and sincerity. It eliminates the arrogant, incompatible and egoistic elements from the frame.

It was just couple of minutes later, the dense silent water progressing beneath  injected a thought into my system. In the supersonic speed of this digital world, everyone is trying to match up the momentum, accelerating hard to reach the top spot, to be successful, getting noticed with the mysterious fame. In the coarse few are hitting the paddle hard as to fulfill their unreal manicures, whereas few are doing it out of no choice to catch up their shortfalls and rest are just doing it for the sake of matching up with others.

At the discussed moment, even I am not an exception to this situation, neither are you. We are all trapped in this Bermuda triangle, where we feel a sense of marching ahead but in which direction, is still a question to be answered. All the fabricated milestones resides at higher altitude of our to do list, but none of us is anxious about the path itself. According to me milestones has to remind us of the fascinating road that we are rolling on, instead of the restlessness of hitting the destination.

Usually at times when I look into rear view mirror of my timeline, I do envision that a lot of phenomenon has been passed on the way back in this trek. Traveling at this velocity, it is obvious that things will pass by quickly even before we realize it or before we live it to the fullest. Though the fact is that we are not even bothered of slowing down to look around at whatsoever that is passing by and everyone has their own legitimate and explainable reasons for it.

 Now and again recalling an old incident always wonder's us just by the matter of fact that it is actually much more older than it seems at first flash. Looking at any new infrastructure we barely recall what it had been there before few years, when did it changed? Such is the pace we are dealing with, and we have adapted to it very quickly and silently.

All the fantasy of this modern era has its own expense or I must say expensive enough. All the cloudy thoughts that struck me last night, certainly manufactured one question in my mind. 

"Is this the way?"

khwab dekhe the bahot..

khwab dekhe the bahot
roshni ke ujale mai

kasame bhi khai thi hamne
kho ke un halato mai

khayalo mai jane
kaha tak tehle the

rasto ko manjil
banane chale the

na jane konsa mod aaya
anjane is safar mai

dhundh rahe hai manjil ko
in khoi hui galiyaro mai...

A lesson learned

The other night, 

Clock ticked around 11:45 PM, there was an unclear tipping of rain water somewhere outside the house, though in an undisciplined manner. House was already slept and I was about to tear apart in my bed. It was  a long day for me starting at early 8 AM.

It was a tough day(excluding an hour) not because it started early but it was a Saturday and I was working. I know I just triggered a bullet on a weaker nerve of some of my working reader friends. For non working lucky ones here is some information, "Work" and "Saturday" don't go well together, don't know whats wrong between them, but I guess its the fast & furious Sunday that's troubling them. Sunday is very smart it will make you wait the most but will disappear in no time giving you all the hardest pain in life to follow.

I unfolded the bed sheet and jumped in with a feeling of relief that finally a good day is about to approach at the other end. My eye lids rejoined happily in super sonic speed, I was already half a sleep in no time, body parts were hibernated quickly. 

It was just few seconds passed and the 24 * 7 hard working part of our body "THE BRAIN" notified me of something in my subconscious state. The notification reads "You still have your spectacles on". There was no fuel left within me to execute any of such instruction. I decided to sleep with it on. But the Brains is smarter anyway. He know how to tackle me even in this situation. He pushed second notification.

The next notification that followed reads "You don't have an extra pair, in case you brake it, while cherishing your Inception driven dreams". That hit me like something, I must tell you he is very smart, this is some pro-activeness, he knows in case I break it, it will ultimately increase his task under three major department "Choice management",  "Finance management" and the toughest these days "Time management".

That notification surely worked for him, it forced me to separate those eye lids again. I pulled myself and sat on my bed. First time in my life I realized how my windows machine feels when I say him to shutdown, he obeys it and gets busy showing me the programs he is closing and suddenly I hit "Cancel". It's bad feeling, its like receiving Candy Crush request notification when you expect something else.

I usually have a case for specs which generally is responsible for taking care of my specs when they are off duty. I usually carry this case when I am travelling as well so as to make sure they are safe. I need to find that now, my eyes got back to work very quickly (just like any other programmer working in overtime, finishing things) they started scanning the room desperately in search of the case. It scanned all the obvious places depending on descending order of their probability. But there were some dark places hidden beneath all the junk that we have on table.

Finally out of exhaustion I stood and scanned all the places on my table with whatever patience still left in me. Although, my body was still forcing me towards the bed. Due to my critical battery a second thought(lazy alternative) was increasingly getting encouraged in my brain to keep the specs on table and abort the process of finding the case. But as usual my brains never gives up that easily, he always puts in one extra effort before aborting any hunt. So he scanned the bed side table as well in vain. My body took shortcut in no time and placed my specs on the table and moved to bed utilizing all the fuel left within.

As soon as my body was in contact of bed sheet I felt much better. I rolled over a bit to get into the more comfortable position. Although my brain was still busy cleaning up the memory that the last operation occupied. But my body was least concern about it. While adjusting myself in a better position I moved my right hand beneath my pillow. I moved it deeper until my fingers touched the bed side table. Suddenly some thought crossed my brain with full speed. My brain still active very quickly calculated the probability of the case being in that space between the joining corners and the result of that calculation was 1. 

Certainly, I was strongly convinced by the result. But I didn't put up any effort to scan that place, even though it was a barely fair inches of work.



At times we are in need of many things, many decisions to be taken, many hopes to be fulfilled, many dreams to be chased. 
We even put in best of our efforts, but all that effort goes no where, forcing you to adjust yourself and take an alternative to that. Later even if you find what you want there's no point in that discovery, the time has already passed.

Finally with this thought I slept at 11:46 PM.

This 1 minute whatever happened might be very normal. But all I can say is life teaches many lesson's indirectly.

This is just "A LESSON LEARNED".

Reincarnation

The sun,
That awakens you,
Stretches the strength, the belief,
Ignites you, 
Inspires you.

The water,
That stabilizes you,
Broadens the thought, the vision,
Soaks the perspiration, the weaknesses,
Shoots a wave in you,
Purifies you,

At times,
Different phases,
One winning from the other,
Taking over the other,
Is just,
A Bow to the other.

Reincarnation

Beginning

Finally!! 

After a long procrastination, I have convinced myself (always a tough task) to write down regularly, not just for the sake of publishing it here ( Don't worry I am not going to annoy you by publishing all of them), but to capitalize my Leisure into something more valuable. A productivity that would lend me some earning later and would make me rich someday.

Needless to say, I have my own definition of both the term I used here "Valuable"  and "Earning", in fact everyone one of us has our own copy of definition for it. (There are certain words where even Oxford Dictionary does not agrees on one explanation, it  gives number of explanations, its up to us on what we agree from the provided options, the author must a smart guy with lot of experience with women's. )


"Valuable Earning" in terms of worthiness of its content, it would help me ink my own thought into some valuable memories, Frankly speaking whenever I find some free time, I always go back and read the stuff in which old memories are carved, old  memories are always refreshing (Caution: Don't relate unsuccessful love stories to old memories). You can relate it to something like one of your friend uploading your old snap captured with friends, I bet each one of you have vast experience about the immense pleasure that an old Snap gives you no matter how many times you already saw it. (Group photo always grabs more attention on social network but that's a different thing. Take my point boys if you want more comments and likes pose with your friends. Girls need not to bother, they can post any thing we will like them :)  )


Likewise writing to me is like preserving the most precious thing in this world. Guess what precious thing I am talking about?
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I know most of you have not guessed anything in the provided time but even if you might have guessed, it would be the things that matters to you, the dearest one, but I am afraid to say that you might have guessed it wrong. Here what I am referring to is precious in its own way,its your "own thoughts", your own "Thinking Industry", "The Intellectual Collection". Isn't it has to be the most precious thing ever? After all we are busy loving and admiring others but we never give our-self the required importance and time.


Our "Intellectual" property is something that gets highly effected over the period of time, as we undergo the never ending process of learning and molding through out the life cycle of this weak, mortal Human body. A stronger thought at particular timeline of your life may seem vague and losses its relevancy at later point of time. This is what the powerful clock tick effects everyone's journey. None-the less we can never be able to have a hold on the blowing wind, but we can always make our path easy by marching in the direction of the wind, it only requires a simple yet effective logic, "Adjust your Sail".


I initiated preserving and accumulating the only property I possess right now, the only "divide by zero" treasure that belongs to me. And I suggest the same to you as well, what ever you might have thought to do so while reading this, go ahead and give it a start.


To end it up, I have only one word in my mind, It's  the 

"BEGINNING"

tera khayal aaya

jab jab di khamoshi ne kabhi,
mere khwabo pe dastak
tera khayal aaya,
tera khayal aaya


jab dur kahi kisi ko,
dhundhla sa dekha mene
tera khayal aaya,
tera khayal aaya


sardi ki thandi lehro mai,
suraj ki un garm kirno ko paya
tera khayal aaya,
tera khayal aaya


din ki bhid ke us shor mai,
sukun ke 2 pal ko chaha
tera khayal aaya,
tera khayal aaya


viran si khali sadak pe,
ek sathi humsafar ko talasha
tera khayal aaya,
tera khayal aaya


guzri hui un yado ke sahare,
khwahisho ki kalam ne ek tasvir jab sajai
tera khayal aaya,
tera khayal aaya


duniya ke tarazu se jab,
ek sawal nikal ke aaya,
kya nahi hai tere pass
tera khayal aaya,
tera khayal aaya

Leisure

Again the same Sunday arrived. Sundays seems very tempting when we are in the middle of the week, that temptation increases proportionally as the long and slow Wednesday, Thursday and Friday passes by, but its on the peek on the last working hour of Saturday and the worst on Sunday evening itself.

It's one of my favourite day of the week for one good simple and logical reason, because it’s a work off day. This is one of those day that gives you the best time of your life, some of the best memories of your life.

(Although situation may vary on one important  parameter "MARITAL STATUS". Although besides just Sunday's this parameter also affects every hour of a person's life especially boys, but lets not press hard on this weak nerve of inconsistent Humans and lets assume we are all lucky and unmarried.)

Talking about Sunday, it's that particular lazy day when you yell on all television channel's for entering into the inter-channel competition of "SHOW NONSENSE STUFF AND WIN!", I bet on this lazy day your television remote is the one working the most, bad day for poor 10 inch wife (remote) of huge Television. On this particular day even the social E-media fails to tighten up your interest for more than an hour or two.

Apart from all this fancy time-killer this day has an unnoticeable benefit. However it may be but it is the best, at-least for me. This particular day gives us that wonder-full thing which we are least bother of, yet they are the real hidden treasure of human life in true meaning.

It gives us those invaluable wonderful moments which we spend with ourselves, that in-explainable feeling  to be idle and free of task, that stroke to enjoy the hours doing nothing and just getting engaged within ourselves. In this highly competitive world, we cherish many dreams in our mind and we try every damn possible thing to make it possible, we give our best shot to be there. Alas!  in this long run we never give ourselves the time to live, to be free, to do nothing, to be just empty, a void.

It is this particular touch which makes us realize the real sense of living, the true realization of spirituality, the essence of liveliness, the rhythmic pumping of our heart, the silent respiratory process that keeps us alive, the calm running blood, the 37 degree Celsius body temperature,  the presence of the slow moving breeze, the still atmosphere, the existence of faith and soul buried beneath our dust-lusted body.

All this minute details which indeed are most vital to make human life possible are nowadays hidden beneath our regular stressful life. In the chase of the artificial needs we always blunder the real source of satisfaction and happiness.

Let us spare some time with ourselves and realize this powerfull and ultimate source of contentment, lets understand the real meaning of it and utilize the most of it, 

lets live this

"LEISURE"

uncertainity

Sometimes life sketches a scene in front of us where we are not sure of the direction in which to stride....the only thing visible is the mist...the early winter-morning fog.....


Though many bells rang in our head still we are not sure  from where the sound waves have originated, all we can make up is its coming......its approaching... far from beneath the visible landscape but exactly from where..... is unclear,vague to this weak human eyes.


This kind of darkness creates anxiety from within as if something is going on-which we are unaware of.Our inner soul is screaming for it, but the communication with the soul seems noisy, disturbed. No matter how much we exercise to hold the communication channel its in vain.


The inner voice is trying to help us to overcome the blackness but the language seems different its unknown.....not the one in which we communicate in normal life...its far beyond the fancy things of normal human life...to get this darkness clear-up there needs something special,some spiritual spark which could resolve the haze..but from where do we get such spark is still an amusement


The Universe is forming a dilemma which we aren't able to solve...not because there aren't any clue....its because something is missing,just that one point which could solve out the entire maze..the entire mystery beyond this unsaid puzzle....just one metal-piece which could tie up the entire chain..just one thought which could open up the eyes forever making the vision crystal clear....but all we have at hand is incomplete word ..broken parts which when merged leaves behind the hole..... the incomplete shape..which could laid to many possibilities when gathered....


Somewhere i feel there's always something around us which are directing us, leading us to the way to escape from this mesh...but pal are we able to recognize that hint.??. Are we enough capable of entertaining the unseen possibilities....the hidden treasure...does this language of nature makes any sense??....or does it really exists......??


Even it seems a charade to me as well.....whether its true or not..
whether it points towards something or not. All I can end up is.


..its  "uncertainty"

Traditional attire festive at Silvertouch

25/10/2011

"Festival  imparts enthusaism into individuals".

This was experienced by each and every employee of silvertouch for this particular day when silvertouch celebrated traditional day the first of its kind ( though i am not sure whether they celebrated it before or not but atleast to my knowledge its the first) . After i became part of silvertouch family it was first time i had expected real fun apart from the regular life at silvertouch.

Its always a positive feelings when things overcome your expectation. As to my expectation  it was indeed a great fun or else can say a great start to the beginning of the energetic diwali, a unique festival of its kind celebrated with tremendous grace and charm.

The speciality of the day was that all the employees were asked to wear traditional costumes to add flavour to the festival . Though I was more excited for what was about to follow this particular day(diwali break..;))...It was the last day at work before the short 5 day diwali break.

Regarding my costume It was almost crazy of me to drop red kurta on the shoulder for this particular occassion as it is mostly used for dazzling navratri nights. The fun started right way as i bio-metrically pinged in and entered the office. Everyone was carrying a silent smile and it was different then usual may be happiness of the festive..moreover i think it was of the upcoming break, the happiness of staying at home for consecutive five days was the reason behing most of  the employees.(Those who dont enjoy such break, I doubt on their work)

It was the most energetic atmosphere i have ever seen in office. Everyone were cracking jokes and adding fun to the happening.It was just the starting of the day and i started loving the day from the very first hour itself. Someone got a good thought in mind and Suddenly Somewhere out of thin air a flash emerged, which completely changed the mindset of all the one present over there and what followed next for couple of hours was really unusual for an IT company a real fun-filled Photography session . Photography speed-ed up in no more than couple of  minutes.What followed next was an entertaining photo session , people forming groups trying to catch  moments into reusable pixels.

 More often everyone loves to be clicked perhaps not just for the sake of having collections of photos with friends  but also to have it posted on networking sites and get likes and comments on it,after clicking a good pic its our first thought "Let me upload it on FB", its kind of trend these days and the best part about it is we all do it coz we like it that our friends liked it.

For the following hour we took as many pics as we can, accessing all the available leaders and manager, it was great fun indeed all of them are damn cooperative and fun loving people, although we didnt got same cooperation with our cam which displayed memory full irrespective of our desires of capturing even more. Thnx to the tallest guy of the silvertouch that he got 8MP into his phone . On personal request of some of my friends I clicked their photos that they can upload to matrimonial site, as they dont want to stay happy anymore. I am sure I will receive healthy beating coz i mentioned this here from same friends but i still got a point that i didnt mentioned the name ;) .

I would also like to mention that  Lajja (caution: dont judge person by her name.) and Jalpan(Acer) jointly forcefully captured some of my pics in which u can clearly see that I undergone gender harassment. So both of u dont laugh while reading it ,I can go legal about it unless and untill u provide me handsome bribe. I know I am a corrupt friend but its a fashion these days to be corrupted. After all we are government team so we need to do our bit to sustain the tradition .

For the first time ever in past 5-6 months i have seen all the directors present at the same place although its a  different thing that some of my new colleagues didnt knew who the directors are. It was great to listen few words from them for whom we work.It was short, sweet and bit humorous our CS added good point to make everyone laugh.

Prizes were to be given to the best dressers and lucky draw winners. We were expecting the winner for dress to be my neighbour who wore complete traditional attire with blue-saffron pitambar-bandi .Though he didnt won...but hatts off to his involvement to this occassion .He surely is a winner for us not for his attire but for his spirit for his enthusiasm. Though everyone who enjoyed the day are all winners for me including me..;).

One of my friend became the luck draw winner and promised to give Black chocolate everyone who wishes her so guys congrats her where ever u see her..in return she will provide u chocolate. We forced a lot to let us open the gift but i guess she wanted to carry that for her mother. So she didnt let us open it. Anyways we knew what was it.

THE DAY (dont consider it as a grammatical mistake but it was worth calling it 'THE DAY') ended up with wishes everywhere. It was one of the memorable day at work. Thanks to the one who got idea of it and arranged something to bring sport and spirit into everyone. It is perhaps essential in our day-to-day stressful life to get involved into such activities to inject enthusiasm into everyone. Along with work its equally important to get such refreshing dose.

Thanks everyone who made the day memorable,and
Happy diwali and Extra-prosperous(as petrol prices are rising) New year to each of my friends and family.
May this season bring lot of cheerful moments into your life.

"Stay cool be happy. Live large."